It's Alright (i hate it)

Chicago; this is hell.
I really really hate it in Chicago. Nothing here makes me happy. I don't like the fact that I'm homeless (sigh...again). I don't like that I'm jobless. I don't like that I doing horrible in school. I just don't like it! I wish I could just disappear! Die and come back when this semester is over. I'm planning to go back to MOVAL in Marshall, MO. My old college. I can't afford anything here in Chicago. School, apt, FOOD! None of that shit. I really should be sleep now. I have class at 8:25. I DON'T CARE!! I thought that I would love it here! I thought that I would finally be happy! I'm not. its not meant for me to be happy. I'll never be happy. I wont. I wont. I wont. I hate it. I hate everything. Man, then Lance. All we do it fight! I hate it! He doesn't want to talk to me tonight on some dumb shit. Makes me feel really really shitty and alone. I am. I really really am alone. I hate it. I don't have anyone. I don't have anything. I have nothing. I hate it...